Ive done a lot of reflecting over the last week.
And tutoring 😊
I am starting my first of 8 sessions of Bereavement Counselling at Nightingale House next week.
It’s just over 10 months since there was a HUGE change /shake up in my life. Yes another one ha ha .
Mum passed away with me in the room on 23rd Jun
Prior to this there was 5 months of unsurmountable emotion and confusion and frustration.
And since then it’s so hard to quantify or put into words how things have changed in my life.
In Wrexham .
The people I actually see regularly….or not .
I genuinely feel quite lonely .
I hardly see anyone . Which for such a difficult time of mum’s passing and then trying to find a bloody house to move into and then the actual move itself .
This bereavement counselling will give me a chance to process it all.
And get angry
And cry .
And get mad.
I’m already worried about my intentions being misunderstood . Which seems to happen in my life a lot.
I want to stand on a stage.
Yes, really.
I want to reach lots of people to share with them things they probably didn’t know.
.
My passion
My skills.
My knowledge
My enthusiasm .
It’s the one thing right now that keeps me going.
And even that can be hard to communicate to others about.
I’m certainly aware of going through a very transformative time.
And I’m trying my best to imagine the next stage of the chrysalis breaking and the Phoenix, or Welsh dragon will break free with her wings and fly in whatever direction I’m meant to fly in .
I believe in me.
And I’m so grateful for the very small number of people who believe in me too.
Xz
